when the 8 turns to 9

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone!!

i've been back home fore exactly 6 days now and i'm absolutely loving it. the past 6 days have been filled with parties, dinners, gatherings and lots of Shopping. zomg. i bought a pair of Paul Frank jammies today!!! i must show you!!! it's so cute i tell you!! hahaha.. anyhoo.. i think i'm the worst blogger ever. seriously. i just can't seem to think of anything to write. so basically if i ever do think of anything to blog about, i'll just rant here. but besides that.. i don't really think i'll say much. considering my blog's a pretty boring and lifeless one. oh but i must show you my jammies!!! :D

hope you guys have a splendid New Year!! zomg 2009!!!! i'll be turning 18!! hell yeah!!! ;)

Becky

Malaysia here i come..

ZOMG I'M GOING BACK IN 3 FREAKING DAYS!!!
ASAM LAKSA HERE I COME!!!

P.S: guys call me if you wanna hang k?? seriously. :D i'll be back on the 25th at 3pm!!! *grins widely* ahh.. i can't wait!! :) and oh.. sweetie i'm gonna miss you like crazy!!!

PostTrack: Rob Pattinson - Never think

Becky

or i'll never give my heart

i don't think i like the person i'm becoming or have already become. it's like i'm on this ferris wheel and for the longest time, i could control the speed of it's motion. whether i wanted it to go out of control and spin like a spinning top or just stop. still. in the midst of any chaos. just. still. but in the past year, i've felt like i've totally lost control of everything. like somebody broke into the station and messed with my buttons and left me up there, at the top of the ferris wheel. alone and uncertain. and panicky. i don't understand it. i really don't. i thought i would've had myself figured out by now. but i don't. i'm seeing a side of myself i don't like. the side where i have absolutely no control over my feelings. where i'm this jealous little wretch. where my emotions are so easily influenced by one person. where i ultimately have no control over myself. it makes me angry. it makes me feel like i've failed myself. it makes me disappointed. but above all, it makes me sad.

PostTrack: Karin Melchart - when i fall in love

Becky

if i start counting down

i'm going home in exactly 17 days!! zomg!!! :D

the oompa loompa

this has been my expression for the past few days. okay maybe not. but if i could walk around with my face scrunched up and my mouth wide open, i would. i'm this close to walking around looking like a maniac but i think the fear of looking like an idiot has stopped me. so far. for the past few days, or should i say weeks, johan has been whining and going on and on about how we don't have permission to go back yet. *gasps* i just realized. i haven't told anyone i'm coming home. DAMN it. but i can't explain my predicament if i don't tell you. anyhoo for starters, we don't have the permission to go home. THEN our flight ticket, to cut a long story short, got canceled. but that's all good now thanks to Alson!! :) THEN the vice-dean of the foreign student's faculty told us we will definitely NOT get permission to take our exams early. which is soo frustrating. i mean if i go home, then i'll have to study for chem!! where's the fun in that? :(

before i start sounding like someone who is very very emotional. i feel like doing one of them tag thingies. so here goes.

the Soundtrack of My Life

Opening Credits:
Hot Hot Heat - Middle of Nowhere

"well maybe i'm a little bit slow or just consistently inconsistent. She said "unpredictability's my responsibility baby""

Zomg.. so random. hahah. but i AM a bit inconsistent and slow in a bimbo sort of way. sometimes. heh. :)

Waking Up:
La Rocca - Non Believer
“i believe the faithful fell and didn't know their way back. do you take the non believer?”

First Day At School:
Keane - Nothing in my Way
“why do you say "it's just another day, nothing in my way"”

Puppy Love:
the Honorary Title - Stay Away
“Seperate yourself from what compels you to relinquish us, push yourself on to me entirely”
i don't really get it.. haha.

Fight Song:
AFI - Prelude 12/21
“I promise you my heart to sing, kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep”
=.= wth.

Breaking Up:
Matt Wertz - Lonely tonight
“Cause this is the hardest thing i've ever done before”
damn it, bloody emo song.

Prom:
Katherine Mcphee & Elliot Yamin - Real Love
“if you're feeling it, put your hands together like this"
this song is so sesat. seriously. but i mean it will sort of get people to put their hands up in the air.. right? :D

Life is Good:
Citizen King - Better Days
“and i know i ain't got much to loose, i've seen better days”
i really have!!

Driving:
The Little Heroes - Thank You

“all of your words cause little earthquakes" *blank look*

Flashback:
Gin Blossoms - As Long as it Matters
“i'm like a broken record that you can play, repeating as though it mattered”
so true!! and i thought my shuffle button was going psycho.

True Love:
Usher ft Beyonce & Lil Wayne - Love in this club (remix)
“you can be anywhere you want but you decided to be here with me”
*swoon* i miss my boyfriend now. haha. on another note, this version of love in this club is so different from the original version. heh.

Wedding:
Alicia Keys - Like i'll never see you again
“when i wake up in the morning, you're beside me. i'm so thankful that i've found everything that i've been looking for.”
this is depressing for a wedding song. i want my wedding to be a little bit happier please!

Moment of Triumph:
Britney Spears feat Madonna - Me against the Music
"it's time to party all night long"

Death Scene:
Joanna Wang - The Best mistake i've ever made
“even if my heart should break, you'd be the best mistake i've ever made”
zomg. i have to die from having my heart broken into a million pieces? noo.. :(

Funeral Song:
The Perishers - In the blink of an eye
“i wish i would've known, i wish i would've seen”
i totally "connect" with the song. i still haven't been to Budapest and VampBoy is going this winter!! hmmph.

End Credits
Will.i.am - Make it funky
"could you make it funky for me, mr D.J?"

this was such a weird tag thing but so much fun. i must admit i cheated for moment of triumph. i mean the shuffle went to some weird techno song. who plays a techno song after they triumph?? zomg. heh. anyhoo i should get back to studying. i think i've been blogging for too long. i NEED to start studying. somebody give me some studying spirit please!

PostTrack: Banderos - Manhattan

Becky

would you like to stay the night

i miss home, outings, laughs, lame racist jokes, bitching sessions and drinks with friends. :)

will we ever really rest in peace

i think i have found my inspiration. i just watched Barack Obama, the 44th president of the United States's winning speech. i am inspired. i pray he will truly bring about a new change and renew the hope of regular civilians in the United States of America.

i found out Lim's dog has passed away. i really wish i could be there for you Lim. i was busy thinking about all the grief he might be going through when i noticed something. something that made me miss home and realize that i have the greatest friends in the world. all my close friends had a shoutout to Fidget, Lim's dog, someway or another. most of us had personal messages that read Fidget r.i.p. then it dawned upon me. Though sometimes we might be too busy to hang out or catch up with each other, we pull together during times like these. we remind our friend that eventhough we might not be there for each other physically, he or she is always there in thoughts and prayers. i couldn't help but feel inspired and happy while at the same time, sharing the grief of my best friend. because eventhough a great friend and companion was lost, it has shown me that friends are there for each other no matter what. that as friends, we should help each other pull through every situation, no matter how miniscule or catastrophic.

so to Lim Dao Wei: i understand your grief and i wish i was there for you to hold your hand and give you a hug. i pray you will pull through the grief. tonight i grieve with you for the lost of your companion. i hope you will stay strong amidst all the pain. ily bestie. :)

r.i.p Fidget. i hope you are friendly with all the dogs in doggy heaven.

Becky